Don't worry, you aren't alone. It's one of those things you aren't allowed to talk about, so it doesn't get discussed, when it sorely needs it. Extremely simplified, a pedophile is not synonymous with a child molester, and is in fact not mentally unstable by nature. They simply have an attraction (usually not even explicitly sexual to children, just as a homosexual is attracted to the opposite sex. The difference is that a pedophile cannot express these feelings.